So this past month, I feel like I've been hit with this apathy bug. Idk if it's just having a toddler, the fact that I have to drive so far to work, or that my job is fairly physical and pulls so much out of me, but I cannot seem to get motivated to do ANYTHING good for ME. Take my vitamins today? Eh. Maybe. Go for a walk/ jog? Eh. If I have time I guess. Eat a balanced meal? Mmm, how about I'll eat vegetables with the next meal.
And on and on it goes.
Normally I'd get really frustrated, but it's kinda more like discouraged at this point. I just go to bed and say I'll try again tomorrow. The one thing that has greatly improved is my Quiet Times (QTs). I got to were I'd go a month between reading the bible, and then would get mad at GOD for feeling so far away! God is so great with boundaries, if I'm giving distance He will respect it. He will still show me every now and then that He misses me, and show me the hunger for Quality Time that He has.
After several times of trying to make a commitment to do better, I finally feel like I have, and QTs are several times a week (Yessssssss). I feel so much better. I feel connected again and it's brought so much peace for the trials that I'm facing right now. Which takes care of the Loneliness factor.
I just keep praying that everything else starts to fall into place that way. I'm just praising God for His patience with me, bc it took a while to get just the QTs worked out. Al- Anon has an saying: HALT! Never let yourself get to Hurgery, Angry, Lonely, or Tired. If you do and can't figure out what is wrong or how you feel HALT.
So I guess this blog entry is a way to work through that to hopefully take care of myself better. My idea to help me through this anti-take-care-of-me phase is trying to ask myself about mid day "Is there anything else I can do to take care of myself today?" That way if there is I can try to fix it before I pick up Ally. But we'll see if this works.
So my question is: What has anyone else done to get through a slump? Did anything help motivate you?
